I've been feeling a bit down the last few weeks. Everything is just a little less sunny, I feel just a little bit sadder.
We officially have less than 12 months left in Japan; now everything I do is tinged with "This is my last......." We've past our last Tanabata season, attended our last Friendship Festival, started our last school year, spent our last Labor Day in Japan......I'm really trying to make the most of everyday, knowing it's the last, but how do I get passed the sadness? We've got some really fun stuff planned over the next 6 months, and while I'm excited and know we'll have a lot of fun and make some great memories for the kids, I know that each and every one these activities will be the last.
I'm not exaggerating when I say there is something every, single day that brings tears to my eyes, some days it's a full-on break down, but usually I just get a little misty eyed. I'm constantly counting down in my head, constantly feeling the sadness and dread of what's to come, leaving Japan. Bleh.
(Edited: Now that I've gone back a few hours later and re-read this, it sounds a little over the top, a little crazy, but it's honestly how I'm feeling right now. Just sad.)