....my soul's tormented journey into the agonizing, black abyss of heartbreak, sorrow and misery. Also known as: time to start making plans for our move back to the States.
O got his official notification that he is within 1 year of the end of his tour, and it's time to start the process of making plans for whatever it is we want to do, i.e. extend our tour in Japan one more year (what I want more than anything!), request another full, 3 year tour in Japan, transfer to another overseas base, head back to the U.S. ........ He'll need to contact his "Detailer", the person who will, well, work out the details of our move, and let them know what he wants to do.
I've got my eye on Langely AFB, in Virginia Beach. If we HAVE to go back to the States (I'm going kicking and screaming, my overwhelming preference is to stay overseas) Langley is my first choice. While Otis doesn't have absolute power over where he gets transferred to, Uncle Sam makes the ultimate decision, he does get to have some say in the plans, and can probably work it out in our favor.
I've been dreading this time since before we even left Florida, knowing the day would come, waaaay too soon, that I'd have to leave Japan again. It's been hanging over my heart like a grumpy, little, black rain cloud since the day I stepped of the plane at Narita. I knew I'd only get 3 years here, and have really tried to make the absolute most of every second, but everything has been tinged with a little hint of bittersweet sadness, knowing my time was so limited. My heart is literally breaking thinking about my last day in Japan.
I love Japan so much, it honestly feels like home to me. This is where I spent my childhood, and when we got here in August 2007, I really felt like I was home at last. I was immediately comfortable and relaxed, there was no culture shock, no homesickness for the States, nothing but pure joy and a sense of contentment that I hadn't felt is such a long time. And those feelings have stayed with me every second that we've been here. But, I knew it wasn't forever. I knew this day would come. And I know that going back to the States is what's best Otis, the kids need their dad, they miss him so much and we all miss them, it's best for Meg too, she really misses her dad and bonus mom. Not to mention the grandparents and other assorted family members. I know it's not fair to ask anyone to sacrifice anymore. *Sigh*
And so it begins............